i have made my decision. & that is too end everything. i mean what was i thinking when i was back to my old path of life. living in fear 24/7. can't set my foot out of boyfriend's place. & every monday is just a nightmare for me. praying & hoping that nothing will ever happen. it just sucks. although quitting is just the same, but still i must stay strong & stick to this decision.

the boy broke down the other day. because he felt that he didn't really take good care of me.he thinks that everything was his fault but it wasn't. trust me. i was the one who make the decision. he really felt it when he saw how sicked i was. how i can barely moved from bed and how sullen i looked. so dear friends, that was the reason behind having me Missing In Action. i was really in that deep shit. & i thank god, i really got out of it before anything worst happened to me.

i have been posting up post, step macam happy but actually im living in fear. & i don't ever want to be back in that fear. it sucks.

the boy over @ Apit's place whereas here i am sitting @ home & posting up this post. it takes up alot of courages. & somehow it will potray how stupid i am. but like what my officer told me, everyone makes mistakes in life. & no one, is perfect. this thing were bound to happen. & im glad i was given another chance.

might be meeting the boy later on @ night. but ain't sure. just see how it goes later on. lagipon aku macam malas seh. =X

the boy came over my place yesterday night. dad & mom was @ home. so yes, he meet up the parents & they like him. so wedding bells soon? i guess so. so dear boy, please save up enough money. no more playing playing okei?

& did i ever mention dat mom & dad going to Umrah this coming monday. haiz. its no wonder everything is hitting back on me. i mean as in karma. all their prayers has been answered. blueks.

okei, enough of me blabering. cooking for myself lunch. & then watched tv. mendaks kepe hidup? i swear i wana work already. tiong la siaks duduk rumah.

& boy, i love you so much. i swear.

:)

ouh, & i miss time tengah taggink so much.





macam nak rewind back time gytuk. [-_-"]