im trying to be strong to post this entry. as im still irritated & dissapointed with boyfriend. since he is still busy sleeping. i just took this oppurtunity to kluar umah. i don't know what will i get when i reach home. takpe la, da season pon..

its always about him. sometimes i don't think theres fairness in our relationship. lets take yesterday night as an example. he was invited to afai's chatlet. afai asked me along but this boyfriend of mine doesn't wants me to go & he told the others not to bring their girlfriend along. as they got somethig to talk about. so i gave him face & stay @ home with his mom. imagine ek, aku blom makan, i sent him to take his cab since they were paying for him.mungkin kau big fuck ngan kawan-kawan kau..tapi aku aper siak? tunggol? then i told him, to buy me some food as i was freaking hungry blom makan sia. guess what? member tros tak balik la sial.

i so was damn pissed off okei. kalau kau tau kau tak balik kan, asal aku nak pergi club ngan kwan aku smua kau tak kasi? why must u freaking control ma life? sial. kau ader enjoy ngan kawan kawan kau, aku duk rumah? kau pikir aku aper siak? bini kau? kalau bini pon, kau buat aku gini aku matiiii ....kau pikir balik la

abih when just now, he reached home, his trying to be nice & stuff and explain himself. to think back, aku malas la sial nak layan. "Bby i da alik...tk tdo? isap rokok sorang nampak.." & my replied was, "aku da cukop tdo. aku da biaser la idup sorang..." abih dia sendiri bingit... biar la kau raser sial.

aku sumpah bingit giler saks... remembered yaya's pit? i wanted to stay awhile longer tapi aper kau cakap? kau cakap jalan? pasal aper? pasal kau mendaks nyer pasal pastu kau bingit sendiri, kau mengamok tk tentu pasal. siaper jadi bahan? aku? then remembered kak ash's chatlet, i was enjoying maself tapi kau? tak.. kau suruh aku balik pasal aper? pasal kau boring... pernah tak kau fikir pasal pengorbanaan aku untuk diri kau? takder... kau fikir pasal diri kau sendiri..

nie macam aku nak buat laki? aku mati la sial. dgr smua kate kate kau. kawan smua aku buang pasal aper? pasal aku fikir aku nak jalan jauh ngan kau nyer pasal. tapi skrg? ntah ah buat aku fikir dua kali...

tapi macam maner pon, deepdown kau tau kan, aku sayang kau.. abih tadi bile kau cakap, "Bby, Happy Valentine Day Sayang..." sumpah aku cair.. tapi skrg aku nak tunjok kau besar kpale aku.. pasal aper? kau da pijak kplae aku, kau faham?!