u know the suckiest thing being in a relationhip is that u have to bear with the other half attitude. nak tinggalkan sayang tapi nak continue sakit hati. what should i do? sometimes i think he doesn't appreciate me @ all.

the worst part of all, our surroundings all hypocrites okei. he called me up just now & whine to me about "them" but at the end of the day when i say what i have to say, i get scolded. at times like this he still siding with them. sometimes i just wish he will think ahead in years to come not just 2morow or next week.

i kept on holding this relationship cos i know its worth but as time past by. . . i got nothing to say. it hurts me deep inside...i feel like giving up all together. but whenever im fucked up or irritated with him, he knows how to make me smile. i don't know. i hate this part.

whenever im alone, i told myself that im better off without him. but when im with him, i just want to be with him & no one else. but why am i feeling this way? isit because the words he hurts me really destroy our love? or isit just me?

typing away this post & looking over @ pictures just makes me wana weep. i miss him & i know he miss me alot too. but what to do? "FRIENDS" in his life are far more important than me per..~

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after finishing up the latest entry. i kinda feel kinda guilty. i miss him so much & i think im frustrated because he says he missed me but @ the same time his over @ apit's place. so its like, wth right?