am supposed to work today but paito-ed again. didn;t have the mood la to go work. all staff macam mendak plus boring. i don't like okei.

anyway me & baby went wdls yesterday. he said he wanted to meet his friend. so together me & baby took the bus from bedok to wdls thn off to meet bob first. den we went towards this block. as we were walking, i told babby, "eyk i pena amik kat sini dulu. wuan..." den bob turn, and bob was like, "ahh. dini name senget." den i was like, btol ah wuan senget! haha.

so me baby & bob meet the not so tak betul wuan. haha. its been so long. & i bet wuan shocked to see me & baby. haha. after that we went 888 plaza. then the big fight started. baby kept pushing me away & hurling hurtful words to me. mind u, its not the first time & i really swore, i nearly walk off yesteday. i felt that i really couldn't take this anymore. its killing me.

so i just cry & follow him. . . he kept on asking me to go away. . & trust me, its tempting to fucking just walk away & sumpah, i feel like slapping him fucking hard on the face. but i kept my cool. i know him, he always says words that he doesn't meant to & at the end of the day he quite regret it.

& when we reached bedok back, ouhmigwad..it was hell okei. . really. i couldn't take it anymore. but i think of us, i think of what we have gone through. when we reach back home, mak was already there. i know he can't shout @ me infront of mak. so he was back to normal. mak saw me crying & asked me why. i told her it was nothing. i went to take the foolscap paper & wrote down what i want him to know. & i know he felt damn guilty about it.

so when he put me to sleep. he hold my hand tight & stroke my hair. kiss my forehead & he told me he love me. that was enough. & im glad that i didn't walk away. because i know this relationship is worth saving for.








& to think back, Hakim Might be release in 11 months time.

Ouh Dear.